Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Finding a place to fit in.

Many of you will know what it feels like to never 'fit-in'. I wanted to write about this and where it can lead. Maybe what I say will guide you to more aware decisions than I made in my teens and beyond.

My Indigo Self, who had always been in a safe and happy place, was suddenly very unsure when the hormones arrived. I didn't fit in from the beginning of high school. I just didn't get it. I didn't get the cliques and the mind games and the bitchy attitudes. I just didn't see the point.

That particular shape of things, has passed.

I believe that I am beautiful. Do you?

We put a lot of stock in beliefs don't we? Beliefs shape us. Identity is so keenly associated with our beliefs. We let beliefs shape the story of our future, before it happens.

Monday, May 3, 2010

Moon Blessings

The Full Moon inspires me! She reminds me that there is a 'Real World' that exists outside of the time and space that the typical world lives in. Perhaps it is because for so many years, the Full Moon has meant Ceremony for me. And Ceremony is REAL.

I think the typical world, the one that more than 90% of people live in is the unreal world.

I still allow myself to be swept up in the real and the unreal worlds so much at the same time. I have come to realise that the reason this happens is because I really do want to understand other people. But it is very difficult. You see, I do not believe in the unreal world. I do not believe in hatred and war. I do not believe in feeling sorry for myself or anyone else. In gossip and competition. I do not believe that anything or anyone else should suffer for my happiness or for my comfort. I do not believe this because I do not see a purpose in these things! And so they are not real to me.