New Moon in Cancer 2011

In writing this New Moon Energy Update this month I'm feeling so utterly 'over' the energies. I know that many of you are subscribed to Karen Bishop's Energy Updates, which I have always held very much as Truth, and that you will have read this morning the same information again : that we are coming to the end of another Cycle of hard work and things are on their way to manifesting, blah blah.

Now, please don't think I'm bagging Karen in the 'blah blah' above. She of course is simply the messenger, and I am grateful for her words, which remind me that it's not just me going mental! The aches, the pains, the exhaustion, the overwhelm! It's all normal for those of us who are senstivie and Awake. And I believe; so is this state of Be-ing 'over' it all. 

It's been a big Eclipse season. Not so big in the sense of huge dramatic Soul work as we experienced in the previous Winter Solstice Eclipse Season. This time has been motivated by a need to stay balanced and 'on top of things'. Eclipses speed the energies up. Anything that we've been hiding from the Self, or even issues that we knew were coming up but had been letting take their slow time, are now rushed to the surface to be dealt with, right here, right now! 

As you probably know, we're now onto our third of three eclipses in a row. This Eclipse falls on the New Moon, in Cancer who is emotional, dreamy and very sensitive, which is probably another reason for feeling as though One will burst into tears over 'nothing'. Cancer is homely and family-orientated, coupled with the introspective feel of the New Moon and Mid-Winter, means there is no motivation to leave the house and get going. 

Eclipses bring change. Change is as good as a holiday, but when you already feel as though you never want to leave the warm snuggly space of your home again, changes can be shocking and harsh. They can bring feelings of confusion and grief, and be incredibly frustrating (“are you kidding me, more change!”) but they provide an avenue to deal with this new way of Be-ing, and it is how we move forward from here that manifests the next part of the journey. 

Cancer is ruled by the Moon, and this eclipse makes Her power-full indeed. Cancer is a nurturer also, and so I find that I'm asking recent clients – “How are you spending your attention?” Our time and effort is a commodity that only we hold Power over. We choose how we spend that commodity : I call it our Soulancial Situation (like financial)... What is important for You right now, and why aren't you putting your soulances into that?

In the Red Tent Circles we will be focusing our own Soulances on manifesting our Visions. A Cancer Moon lets us dream, and so we will use what our body gives us freely as commodity : attention and breath; to birth this Vision forward. This Moon asks us to look after our Self. To really treat the Self with Compassion and sincerity; to not expect too much.

Awakenings, Expansion and Energy:
I am aware that there are many openings of energies and expansion occurring rapidly this month. I don't feel that it's necessary to comment on here, suffice it to say that again Compassion and nurture of the Self is what You will need to continue with Grace this month. Trust that when your body says No., that that's ok for now. Trust that when you can't make it to work on time, that that's ok for now. And trust the Universe that when She offers You a new option, it's probably the One You need for now.

Full Moon in Capricorn 

Capricorn is a stable and grounded sign who believes in family and security and doing the right thing. You will already be spending a bit of time at home and in silence, by the nature of the energies this month, so in doing this, give yourSelf time to think about what you want for this Life. Awakening Souls need not be told that the things we want in Life don't mean 'I want a big house with a white picket fence'. That kind of thing is not Life's Work that you are working toward. But, ask yourSelf what is...? When you are living your Truth and Being in a Space of Sacred Sincerity to Your Self, You will find the answer. 

I wish You much joy and Self Love this month. I wish You the Knowing that You are a Soul Being of the Highest order here on Earth. I wish You the manifestation of all that You need.

-Hollie B.

Sometimes it takes longer to catch up...

I had a realisation this week, that my body takes a bit longer to integrate the shifts of the Earth and the Self than the rest of me does. Of course, You might think "well, duh Hollie!" but somehow I missed that. I've been expecting my body to keep up with my million mile mind and Soul. Suddenly, I feel as though it's ok, and it's not that I've been doing anything wrong, but I just haven't given the changes enough time. I'm learning that Rest is an ok part of the process of moving forward. It's a hard lesson, but I'm getting there. I write this piece, because maybe it will support some one else (particularly You fast moving, driven Indigos that need a reminder too) to give the Body time to integrate what the Self already knows...  

My body is a Space Ship. I have often felt like I don't fit in here properly. As though we were made seperately and I'm still trying to work out the controls.

She has grown. I have grown. She has changed. I have changed. But not always have our journeys been the same. She has snuck in surprises when I least expected them. In the times I remember, there are more when I felt that She let me down, than when I have celebrated Her.

Of course, many times She has been the support. I could not have gotten here without Her. But I've taken Her for granted, and expected Her to keep up with the Self, even when the Self was on Her own tangent of change. And even when Self thought I wanted something, Body has been there to make sure things have turned out in Divine Order. Babies, houses, food... all this has been driven by Body. Self has only had part of the say.

My body, this Space Ship, and I have been ill to the edge of death, in hospital, with white coats around like an episode of House. Was it me who was sick, or Her? All I know is that She showed me then, that no one else has the words for why my body does what She wants, and that, always, not just sometimes, but always, I must travel deep inside to See what's going on. No one can do it for Me. 

When I think I've worked out how She works, and how to drive Her : when I take my vitamins and do my exercise and eat my veges and sleep well : still She has a surprise for me. And then I prove to my Self again, that we don't understand each other. Something is not right. I failed maintenance 101 for Space Ships. Or this Ship at least. 

In the past when I've been in dis-ease with colds or injuries, my Self has believed She did something wrong. That She has not interacted with Body accordingly. That She the Body is unhappy with the current situation. But Self, You had it all confused! You weren't doing anything wrong! You were just too damn excited and hurried about moving forward with the process. Body just needs some time to catch up! 

It's more difficult to integrate high frequencies of energy when You are a dense mass like Body. How on earth can Body be expected to keep up with Self? Self is out there. Self is growth and change at a Light level. Body is growing muscle and cell and changing shape. But the two are not necessarily aligned. 

Now I have a new perspective, between Body and Self. It is not that I dropped the optimal Body manual when times of rest are created. It is not that I am doing anything wrong. To fully undergo the Shape Shifting process, in Higher Frequencies of Light and Real World Being, my Space Ship needs to create some spare parts. It takes time. So if Self is rushing ahead, Body will call out 'hey, slow down and wait for me to catch up' and if Self doesn't listen, Body will throw some screws loose, drop a rocket or leak some fuel, and everything will have to stop. Only then, as Body has learnt, will Self listen, and give Body time for the integration She needs to continue. 

Because I know that these Space Ships we're given; you can't buy effective spare parts. Certainly you can replace them, but eventually they'll frag out worse than the first set. Instead, it's about generating physical change slowly, in a cell by cell process, that is more than a physical process. It takes thoughts and release valves and emotional change. It takes a keen connection with our Space Ship.

I still believe that my Self and this Body were made separately. That in a yard full of shiny new Space Ships I chose Her, cos She obviously ticked all the boxes for the kind of vessel I needed for this Earth trip, this time. Now, suddenly I realise, I'm doing everything right for our process together. We are travelling well. We have it worked out.

I'm just going to keep it at a pace that we both can understand.